Wednesday, April 2, 2008

old diary entry



“October 12th 2007,
Dear Diary,
This evening I felt the soul of the world speak to me for about two minutes. Everything natural had become exaggerated, explosive, exciting to my senses. The flowers, natural lighting, a nearby dog and a dark-grey sky trying to decide its place between rain and night time, a fresh mid-green grass with sooo many light flies, looking as though the grass lining the road became lit runways. Blinking and flickering all in a fading evening. The coconut trees looked even more welcoming, my sneakers against the pitch reminds me of some extensive journey, the razor grass standing straighter than usual. All in a fading light. No shadows and I silently think to myself that my body seems to be glowing, illuminated by the growing darkness, ironically. Then she spoke in a breeze, lightly, then more strongly against my face, against my chest, till I close these eyes, inhaling everything around me, smiling (probably stupidly- the neighbour might think) in approval. I slow my steps down because my house is right there, and so in trying to delay time, I walk even more slowly, taking in her last few words. I look down my street and recognize how dark it has become, then to my house, where my dog runs out barking, though I were a stranger. I stood at the gate, looking at him, him at me with an easing approach, then I enter.
Too many British breezes have made me cold-hearted towards him, he came to mind too. It was one of those single moments that had so much in them. Truly I felt it. A universal conspiracy to put me back to my rightful place of thinking…”

If God wills it...Amen.

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

laporte


this is some more photography. The door and bookshelf in my room, I always thought that there was more to the woodstains. Negative night image.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Abort

Struck between pressures like hydrogen gas,
Oxygenated hydrogen for tears and unparted lips for a collecting-flask,
Post-partum, catching water for lies,
For sighs,
Emanating from her,
From him,
For her,
But no longer
A seed she was supposed to bear,
Syringing foetuses to form fodder for nightmares,
She sometimes would hear,
The child crying,
And feel the baby's corpse for a pillow,
A pool of blood for a bed sheet
And all else that runs cold below
A hardened face.
This hardened place
Where no education, no car, no music and certainly
No Man
Could ever compensate.

Monday, March 17, 2008

3's...




Been trying my hand at some photography in my backyard. I saw the quotation once "Real Art is a thin breath exhaled amidst a struggle in the mind." I fell in love with it.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Sunday Seeds


Mustard Seed Sun
Amassing my midday sky
With a warmth
Spreading across skins,
Sasso-borro Brown
As they might be,
Pelo a causa de mi
Identidad Negra.
This Caribbean sun flavours
My thoughts,
Swizzle-sitcked and stamped
To my source
As these moments start traveling
Beyond yellow-walled boundaries
Of this bedroom,
Bounded by mummy’s Sunday food,
That traps some of my senses back here,
Black hair, twisting madly
Into brown ends,
Brown bends of my body,
Stretched across this bed,
Outside light strapped across my forehead,
For to spend just two more minutes
Soaking in my laziness,
Would only make me
Miss another Sunday…